Boys

October 14
One day I will go into the last 6 months with Cade, my 17 year old. For right now I will just say that they have been hard. Understatement. They have been full of fear, anger, hurt. But last night he chose to stay home with me. Just the two of us. We watched Zombieland. He was silly. He has a great sense of humor, but we haven't seen it too much lately. We didn't talk about much of importance, because I didn't want to ruin the mood. I cried in bed later I was so overcome. Tomorrow he may go back to hating me, but for one night it was all good. I slept. I wasn't worried about getting a phone call in the middle of the night. It was a gift.





September 12, 2017
I have been to 2 fortune tellers in my life. The first one was in New Orleans. I was there on a trip with my husband to celebrate our first aniversary. The two main points of the session were that I was very psychic myself which made it an easy reading and that I was placed here to be a mother. At that time I thought she was crazy! I was no more interested in having children than I was in becoming a nun. I loved my life, the freedom we had to pick up and go anywhere on a whim. The right to be selfish. This was only reinforced by the birth of my niece, a little screaming monster. (She has grown into a lovely, young woman). The second time I visited a psychic was after the death of my second son. She was incredible. Whatever your beliefs are, this woman was legit. She told me things that she had no way of knowing. It was so amazing or eerie, depending on your way of thinking. She elaborated on the whole "mother" comment. She told me my purpose here this time was to be an "Earth Mother"; that I would have several children myself and that I would collect people for the rest of my life. That I would be mother to them all. My plan was to have 2 boys and a girl. I ended up having 5 boys. I took in their friends as my own and I "adopt" all of the students that rotate through my office. Once you enter my world, if I claim you as one of mine, you are one of mine going forward. The students call me their Ky Mom. I am told I go into mom-mode with every person that crosses my path. It's unintentional. I honestly don't realize when I am mothering others. It's part of who I am and I'm told I am a Fierce Mom. Can't decide if that's a compliment or an insult!